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Spoiled By The Past

[ 4 ] March 28, 2010

“I think I’ve been spoiled by the past, because the present isn’t enough.” – Matthew Henrickson

After I put this quote on my Facebook I got asked what brought it on. My response:

Just thinking about the past. What really brought it on was I went out for a few hours. I had texted a few people while i was out and all that. When i got home no one had texted me back… no one had missed me.

I just feel alone sometimes. No one needs me anymore, no one seems to want me. I’m not desired, called upon, checked on. I’m just me. And being me is lonely.

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Fighting the Night

[ 0 ] March 20, 2010

Fighting the Night
3/19/2010

Not drinking the bottle, has made my mind clear
Every night facing my biggest fear
Reliving pain, hurt, and deep sorrow
Never forgetting the images when I wake up tomorrow
Seeing myself cry in pain
Hurts more than living through it.

Since I’m not numb my mind races
It’s not easy keeping those bad thoughts out
Fighting that addiction
That has been killing me slowly
Long enough to keep me alive
To feel pain again.

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