Category: Matthew Henrickson Poetry

Same Old Me

“Same Old Me”
Written October 16th, 2007

Struggling as always
Holding myself together.
For you, For us, For him
Drinking it, so I don’t crack
Trying my best not to let the bad, back.
Changed what I did best, now it’s truth
No longer filled with lies.
Life has me filled with guilt
If I deserve what I got,
What happened and what’s coming.
This time, it’s the stress to succeed
That’s wearing me down
The stress of life,
That’s slowing beating me.

Is my best going to be “good enough”?
AM I?

by Matthew Henrickson

My Heart is Yours

“My Heart is Yours”

How does it feel to be my other half?
You wash i dry
Your ying my yang
Wax on wax off

You’ve become the other part of me
That I’ve been missing
You’ve become the other part of me
That I’ve never had

My heart has been yours
Do with it what you want
My heart is yours
Please don’t break it
My heart has been in your hands
Love it
Like I’ve loved yours
I’ve been yours
Now be Mine

Imperfectly Perfect

Imperfectly Perfect

Your imperfections are perfect to me
Any mistake you make
Is my own.
If in fact you are wrong
I’ll forgive you always.
When I’m mad at you,
I’m even more mad at myself.
I give myself to you completely
You are my world,
The ground I walk on
And the light showing me the way.
You are the reason I awake each day,
Since you are my life.
A perfect human being,
Only one exists
That happens to be you
And no one else.
Why is this true?
Because I’m in love with you.

by Matthew Henrickson

Flowered

Flowered

My heart like a flower
Wilting as its been picked
The petals falling off
Losing these petals
As my mind is lost
Crumbling into nothing
Like my soul has become

Once beautiful in a happy home
Smelling of sweetness
Blowing in the wind
Watered daily showered with rain
Healthy in a perfect world

The water has run dry
Beginning to die
Falling apart at the stem
Not feeling the love
In its garden
With its friends

Wilted
Petal less
There is nothing left,
But to crumble

by Matthew Henrickson

All For One

“All For One”

And now I’ll watch you leave again
This time I’m waving
I’m tired of not being good enough
I’m sick of being second and third to them
My ears are shut and I won’t listen
It started to hurt too much
Your words like needles
Piercing my heart
Now I know it wasn’t me you cared about
It was only yourself
You chose not to risk us
You chose to save you
And left me
To fend for myself

by Matthew Henrickson

Goodbye to Hello

“Goodbye to Hello”

I guess this is goodbye
Not for always
Just for now
Until… you’re ready
Until you need me
Now is the time we need to part ways
But I know we will be reunited again
We have to…
For my sake
For our sake
I wish you the best
While we are apart
But I had to let you go for now
I know you will come back
Because I’ll always be here
Waiting for you…
Waiting… for the bad to pass
And the good to reign once again
For us to once again
Exceed all expectations
And be happy
Until then I will miss you
Just secretly
Until then I will want to be with you
But I won’t tell you anymore

So this is my goodbye
Until… its hello again.

by Matthew Henrickson

Real Fake

Real Fake

The images so clear
So real
Yet… so fake
I see it
But it doesn’t mean its here
I hear it
But it doesn’t mean its here
Because I can’t feel it
I know it isn’t real
Because I want it
I know it isn’t there
Because I need it
I know it never will be

by Matthew Henrickson 

Too Late

“Too Late”

It’s too late
Can’t go back and change it
It’s too late
Got to live with it
It’s too late
Like always your timing was off
It’s too late
Don’t know how to go on without you
It’s too late
Wanting you back here with me
It’s too late
Can’t have you now
It’s too late

by Matthew Henrickson 

Sorry…

“Sorry…”

I’m sorry for everything I should have said
For what I didn’t say
For what I shouldn’t have said
And I did
I didn’t know how to handle us

So I made mistakes
And I can only tell you that I’m sorry

I’m sorry for leaving you when I shouldn’t have
Sorry for being there when you wanted to be alone
Sorry for it all
Sorry for the fights you always won
Sorry for not fighting when I should have

I’m sorry for forgetting when you wanted me to remember
Sorry for remembering when I should have forgotten
Sorry for buying you the wrong gifts
And not buying the right ones
I’m sorry

I’m sorry for being wrong when I should of been right
And sorry for being right when I was supposed to be wrong
I’m sorry for never letting you have your way

I’m sorry for drinking when I shouldn’t have
For not being sober like you wanted
You always knew best
I’m sorry for not listening

I’m sorry for loving you so much that I made these mistakes
Blinded by love… I’m sorry
I’m sorry for loving you when you didn’t want me to…
I’m sorry for not loving you right…
I’m sorry for not knowing how to love….

I’m sorry… for being sorry