Words of a Poet

Apparently I’m psycho because I passed this test (or failed, however you look at it). Do you think you are psycho? Here’s how it works:

Read the question then come up with an answer. Give it some thought and then scroll down to the bottom for the result. This is not a trick question. It is as it reads.

A woman, while at the funeral for her own mother, met this guy whom she did not know. She thought this guy was amazing! She fell in love with him right there, but never asked for his number and could not find him later. A few days later she killed her sister.

Question: What is her motive in killing her sister?

To find the answer click the link and scroll down.

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Funny, this is what I wrote exactly 5 years ago. Must of been in class…

Look Me in the Eyes
February 3rd, 2004

Can you look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t need me?
Can you look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t love me?
As my eyes pierce your heart
Can you look me in the eyes… and watch mine fall apart?
Can you look me in the eyes…
And keep telling me these lies?
My eyes looking through you
Seeing right past you
Can’t you look into mine like you used to?
Can’t you gaze into mine like you did when you loved me?
Look into my eyes… You’ll never know what you’ll see
Entrancing… your eyes guide me
I want mine to do the same

Can I look you in the eyes…
And hold back these cries?
Can you look into my eyes? You and I… Forever.
This moment everlasting
Looking into mine… looking into yours
I couldn’t want anything more
Just this frozen moment in time
Look into my eyes… like you were mine

Can you look me in the eyes?
Can you… even… just… look at me?

by Matthew Henrickson

Too Disappointed
November 10th, 2003

Too scared to move forward
Impossible to go back
So I just sit here idle
Living my life like I do
Trying not to get too close to you
Cautious of your type
I know how it goes
Bringing back the pain that my heart knows

I can’t believe your promises
They sound so familiar
Promises are just disappointments in the making
And I…
Have been disappointed…
Too many times.

by Matthew Henrickson

The last of my new ones that I had written all on the same page. It’s all about time, always. Never enough time, sometimes too much time. Time spent. Time wasted… what time is it?…

Timed Out

Why waste time, if that’s all you got.

Why spend it and not value
The time spent
How much is it worth?
Enough to spend on me?

Time slips away
The clock races to my heartbeat
I lost track of days
Whether it’s day or night
Whether you spent enough of that time
With me.

by Matthew Henrickson

Another new one, just kind of writing for writing.

Starting Line

Why start at the top
If you never plan to finish
Why start at the bottom
When you’ll never get to the top
What’s the point in being in the middle
You’ll get lost in the crowd
And never move up or down.
What’s the point
In starting at all?

by Matthew Henrickson

This is a song you definitely need to go download. I’ve got it on repeat. The verse at the end flows really nicely.

Pleasure P featuring Lil Wayne

This Is Gonna Feel Real Nice
I Got My Swagga Back On This One
Now This Ones Goin Out To
All The Fellas That Done
F**ked Up
They Relationship With They
Old Lady Thinking
This Was A Game
Now You Done Walked Into That Bar
Ordered One Drink
One Drink Done
Turned Into Three
Three Done Turned Into Ten
Now You Lying On That Bathroom Flo
Askin Yoself What Happen
Im Wit You
Im Wit You

Never Knew Just What I Had
Then Not Have Now I’m Stuck
With This Habit Singing Drunk
Screamin Damnit Girl Why
Why’d It Take For You
To Free Up Out My Life
Before I Look Myself In The Mirror
(Singing Why Why Why Why Why)
OOh Baby xxx So Good Lately
Its Been To Crazy
Its Been Two Days Since
Ya Left Me
OOh Baby I Miss You Baby
And Darling I Can’t Take It

I Done Hit Rock Bottom Over You
Girl I’m Beggin And Pleadin
Gotta Nxxxx Feelin You
Downin Them Liquor Bottles Got Problems
I Done Hit Rock Bottom Over You
And I’m Missin Them Kisses
The Way Your Body Just Glistens
When Your In The Shower
Just Listen
I Done Hit Rock Bottom Over (You You You)
And I Can’t Just Hit Rock Bottom (Over You You You Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah)

Now I’m In These Streets
Just Tryna Figure Out
Just How The F**k I’m Gonna
Get My Baby Back Back Right Now
An I’m Thinkin Baby If I Send
Some Flowers Or Some Candy
Sing A Lullaby
(Hell Nah That Ain’t Go Work)
And I Know This Sounds Crazy
But I Ain’t Givin Up
Darlin You Gotta Understand
I Was Off The Chain
An I
I Wanna Make It Worth Your Wow
This Time
I Done Hit Rock Bottom Over You

I Done Hit Rock Bottom Over You
Girl I’m Beggin And Pleadin
Gotta Nxxxx Feelin You
Downin Them Liquor Bottles Got Problems
I Done Hit Rock Bottom Over You
And I’m Missin Them Kisses
The Way Your Body Just Glistens
When Your In The Shower
Just Listen
I Done Hit Rock Bottom Over (You You You)
And I Cant Just Hit Rock Bottom (Over You You You Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah)

When We Hooked Up
We Sat Down Made An Agreement
We Vowed That We Would Always Be
Together Through Whatever
We Say That No One Would Eva
Come Between Us
Said We Would Never Ever Leave Us
That Was A While Ago
But It’s Like Lately
It Feels Like
I Mean I Feel Like
All We Do Is Fight
And Every Single Night
We Can’t Get It Tight
We Can’t Get It Right
I Just Wanta Go Back
Take It Way Back
All The Way Back
Start Again Do It Over
Can We Straighten It Out
Can We Work It Out
Cause I Don’t Want Be Without
(You You You And I Just Can’t Hit Rock Bottom Over You)
You Make Me Feel Like
A Natural Man
And I Stand Under The Clouds
Tryna Catch You If I Can
And If That Goes As Planned
Then Safely You Should Land
We Will Hold Hands And Dance
To The Beat Drums Of Our Heart
We Should Never Be Apart
I Pray The Music Never Finish
From The Start On Ya Mark
Get Ready Set Pume
As I Race To The Finish Line
Better Yet The Top
Cause I Don’t Wanta Hit Rock Bottom
Bottom Line
Please

This one is weird, I was just kind of writing. Strange because it was daytime.

Sirens

The sirens blare as they chase the night
Always on call to fight death
Never taking a night off
The sirens fly to save you
Every night the sirens are too late
Too late to do any good
They get lost in the night
Lost in the darkness
They are just a sound.
A thought.

by Matthew Henrickson

Everybody Knows by John Legend

It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the pain
I’m trying to find the words to say, please say
It’s written all over my face, I can’t
Function the same when you’re not here
I’m calling your name and no one’s there
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody knew
But I wish you the best, I guess.
‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
‘Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

I don’t care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don’t know
The radio’s on, you tuning me out,
I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me down
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody knew
But I wish you the best, I guess.
‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
One more try
‘Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

Oh I wish you’d understand
Oh, just an ordinary man
Listen we’d have known
Everybody knows, but nobody really knows
And I know one day you’ll see, nobody has it easy
I still can’t believe you found somebody knew
I wish you the best, I guess.

‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
One more try
‘Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

“There are tons of fish in the sea, but what if I don’t know how to fish?” ~ Matthew Henrickson

Now even the fish are depressed. What am I supposed to ‘catch’ ?

The San Diego Union Tribune posted this short article:

“Researchers have found that antidepressants in rivers and lakes, part of the flood of pharmaceuticals washing into the environment, make fish sad, casuing them to cease eating or looking for mates. Some fish even stop swimming, preferring instead to simply hang vertically in the water.”

Even though “fish in the sea” is a metaphor, seems so real doesn’t it?

Update: Many people seem to know the general idea, but still don’t fully get it. I wrote my own Interpretation of Loves Deceit. I tried to break it down the best I could and understood.

If you’ve seen ATL you know it has a dramatic ending. “Uncle George” recites a nice poem called Loves Deceit by Big Rube. Big Rube is a rapper from Atlanta and has done more poetry on ATL and other places.

“Love’s Deceit”

Pleasure turns to the pain of lessons learned from the strain of the questions burned in my brain about whether love is humane in its touch
These thoughts are like salmon swimming upstream in the tears of your deceit
Fighting a current hurt that kills more than is created by the chaos of our intertwined emotions
Chaotic because the anchor of Eros’ arrow has been plucked from the vessel of my undying infatuation
Separation not as simple as the distance between us
My mind no longer possessed by the demons that had been the overseers of my enslavement to your lies
The seeds of these lies rooted so deeply they’ve cracked the foundation of what we once shared
Allowing the faith in us I had sealed inside to gush out like a river
Ripping the image of our future together from my thoughts as violently and as brutally as if it were a child being taken from its mothers arms
I’m left surrounded in darkness but I refuse to be swallowed by it
My loneliness like night air; invisible to the eye obvious to the touch, in its cold uncomfortable ness
Yet If I could do all over again I’d do it in the same skin I’m in
To lay down and let love die, just stay down and let love lie
No, no, no, no, not I
I’ll stay around and let love fly
Even though I’ve seen its darkest form; deceit
Nothing else could tastes this warm or feel this sweet

by Big Rube

Listen to the poem on Youtube.