Finding Fish by Antwone Fisher Book Review Essay

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In Finding Fish by Antwone Fisher, the major decisions Antwone makes in his youth helps him become a successful person. Antwone grew up as a foster child and took care of himself. He didn’t understand these concepts of “foster”. “For a long time we never heard anything about the Pickett’s being foster parents and there was no question but that they were our mother and father.” (Fisher 53). He was constantly abused physical and mentally with no positive reinforcement. No matter how hard life gets, Antwone still works through it.

Leaving the Pickett house was the first decision he made that would help him greatly in the future. He basically had to brainwash himself. To succeed he has to forget everything Ms. Pickett, his foster mother, has told him. “Like that person who lies so much about something he eventually doesn’t know the truth of it anymore, I saw that if I could learn to convince others that my future wasn’t hopeless, in time I could convince myself.” (238). Antwone gets so used to being abused physically and mentally, he gets a very low self-esteem. After awhile the physical abuse wasn’t as bad as the mental abuse. Finally Antwone fights back against Ms. Pickett. When he is kicked out, he takes his opportunity to get out of there.

At sixteen years old, capable of making his own decisions, he attends the rest of high school at reform school. Even though he didn’t do anything wrong it offered child care services. He knows school is important so he jumps a grade to finish by the time he is eighteen. Being on his own he learns what he needs to do. “When you’re eighteen, you’ll be on your own. You need to have a plan.” (243). His only plan is to get his diploma. “By Christmastime, I had succeeded in earning the right to graduate with the seniors.” (255). After graduation, with his adolescence ending and no plan on what to do, Antwone is alone once again in the world.

Antwone returns to Cleveland and begins delivering drugs for a drug dealer he met. He knows he has to get out and far from there. “And at the bottom, in bold, inviting type, was the phrase that really got me: Join the Navy, See the World.” (281). The navy is everything that Antwone needs. It provides him a home, money, and a chance to get out of where he was, far away. It is his perfect escape. Not only was the navy all of those things but it helped his self-esteem. “But boot camp gave me a new self-image. I found out that I was average, academically and athletically.” (287). All of his life he was told he was worth nothing, and he was nothing. The navy showed him otherwise.

Antwone becomes successful on his own decisions. Basically alone all of his life he still manages to survive and succeed. He accomplishes everything that he needs and wants to accomplish. After the military he finds his family and makes one of his own. Nonetheless, he is happy.

Since then he has written great poetry like Who Will Cry For the Little Boy. His poetry book is very meaningful and I would recommend it to everyone.

Written by Matthew Henrickson

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Bleeding Love Lyrics Leona Lewis

Song Lyrics

This is a great song, the lyrics are great. You cut me open and I… keep bleeding. But I don’t care, because I am in love with you.

Bleeding Love
Leona Lewis

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

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Poisoned Love

Matthew Henrickson Poetry

This was an interesting poem that I wrote. It was all in one flow, no edits. I hate editing…

“Poisoned Love” 

Your forbidden kiss
like poison to my lips.
Diseasing my heart
Infecting me as we part.
Your love so sweet
Without it I’m incomplete.
I risk death to be in your arms
and to feel your love.
Being with you hurts my heart
and stings my soul
but it would be even worse without you.
I need to feel your love.
I need your love to continue.
I need to be plagued by your kiss
and held in your arms.
Keeping me alive
Is that poison
That starting killing me
In the beginning.

by Matthew Henrickson

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Behind the Scenes

Matthew Henrickson Poetry

“Behind the Scenes”

Behind the scenes
I reveal all
But today
I am hiding behind this mask
You see a smile on my face
My heart isn’t smiling
This person you see is fake
I won’t let you know the real one
If you come to close…
Ill back away

You don’t see my struggles
You don’t see my addictions
You don’t see the blood
You can’t see my pain
My tears are falling
But they are invisible to your eyes
My words I don’t say
I won’t let you hear them
My trust has been given away too much
I won’t let you have it
You don’t see my broken home
I won’t let you in it
You don’t see behind the scenes…
The real me.

by Matthew Henrickson

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I’ve Always Dreamed…

Matthew Henrickson Poetry

This is by far, in my opinion, the best poem I’ve written in a long time. It reminds me of another one that I’ve written, but I just can’t remember it right now.

“I’ve Always Dreamed”
March 28th, 2008

It’s always been my dream
To be somebody
I don’t need to be famous
I just want someone to think I did something
“Oh yeah, he did this…”

It’s always been my dream
To write the best poem
To be recognized as a poet
And to touch people through my writing
“Oh yeah, he wrote this…”

It’s always been my dream
To be the best father
Regardless of when it was
Just be the best for my child
“Oh yeah, that was MY dad…”

It’s always been my dream
To do something bigger than myself
To touch people on another level
Do something that really mattered
“I’ll always remember him”

By Matthew Henrickson

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I Need More Time

Matthew Henrickson Poetry

“I Need More Time”
March 28th, 2008

The clock is constantly ticking
Time is always “flying”
Flying right by me
Out my window
Moving too fast for me to catch up
Too fast for me to slow down
So much left to do
Seemingly less time to do it
Less time to love, write, care
Less time to work, to try and be there
More time is what we are all striving for

More time to be with you
More time to live
More time to love you
More time to always be there

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I Dreamt About You

Personal

My Dad and Me

I dreamt about you last night. I don’t know why you were so mean. Maybe because we haven’t talked in a while. I haven’t seen you. Where have you been?

I remember crying in the dream. You were being really hard on me and I couldn’t take it.

It was one of those things where you weren’t really dead. That you faked your death. I always dream that. That you aren’t dead and just went away for a while. I don’t know why. Maybe because I never really saw you dead.

I always knew you and Emma would like eachother. I tell her that all the time. You guys had a great time in my dream, even if it wasn’t real.

I miss you. I talk about you a lot. Think about you a lot, especially when I am doing the things we always used to do. Emma must be tired of hearing about you.

I can’t wait until Matthew is big enough to learn and know about you. I can take him to do all the stuff we did. Create those memories that we have.

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Anyone Else But You by The Moldy Peaches

Song Lyrics

I thought this song was cute when I saw it at the end of Juno. Since Juno the Moldy Peaches have emerged popular from this song. I think it’s cute and another song I like for it’s lyrics.

Juno“Anyone Else But You”

You’re a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you’re back is the latest trend
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body’s swinging from side to side
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can’t, you forgive me?
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn’t mean we’re not smart
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I’m in love with how you feel
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam I’m your biggest fan
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du
But you

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Love Song by Sara Bareilles

Song Lyrics

This is definitely my style of poetry and music. This is a beautiful song even if you don’t like how she sings it.

Love Song Sara Bareilles“Love Song”

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
You made room for me but it’s too soon to see
If I’m happy in your hands

I’m unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s
Make or break in this
If you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I’m gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I’m trying to let you hear me as I am

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s
Make or break in this
If you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I’m gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

Promise me that you’ll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
’cause I believe there’s a way you can love me
Because I say
I won’t write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s make or break in this
Is that why you wanted a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s make or break in this
If you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don’t want it for a minute
Babe, I’ll walk the seven seas when I believe that
There’s a reason to
Write you a love song today

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Arrows

Matthew Henrickson Poetry

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Arrows
February 18th, 2008

Each line is a direction
Each direction has an arrow
Each arrow pulls me a different way
Each different way is a new path
Each new path is a new chance
Each new chance is a new hope
Each new hope gives me something more

Something more is a new start
A new beginning
To change your life
Fix your mistakes
Find happiness.

It all starts with a direction
An arrow pointing you in a certain way
But it’s up to you to chose the right one.

Follow the lines and you’ll end
Back where you started.

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