Words of a Poet

I watched Forrest Gump the other night and I really like this part. I had to change it when Bubba dies, it still makes me sad!

I listened to it a few times, this should be the exact quote. Unfortunately I couldn’t find a good Youtube clip to go with it.

You know it’s funny what a young man recollects. Cuz I don’t remember bein’ born. I don’t recall what I got for my first Christmas and I don’t know when I went on my first outdoor picnic, but… I do remember the first time I heard the sweetest voice in wide world.

I had never seen so beautiful in my life. She was like an angel.

All I Need Is You
December 18th, 2010

I can’t help that I think
About the past
The Present
and What could be in the future

I can’t help to miss you when you’re not there
I can’t help to think about you when you’re gone
I can’t help to want to talk to you constantly
I can’t help that I put you first.

I love you more than you know
You are the one I chose
The one I want
The one I can’t live without

When I am with you, I have no doubts
With one word you can change my mood
My world, every emotion
The power you have over me,
Is as scary as it sounds.

It’s not my words, but my actions that should prove
That no matter what, I will always love you.
And I hope you will see
That all I need
Is the same thing.

by Matthew Henrickson

The I’m Sorry Game
December 18th, 2010

It was hard to say I was sorry
I did my best to show you
After all I put you through
To prove that my love was true.

Now I feel I need the same
Take some responsibility and blame,
But now it’s your turn to play…
The I’m sorry game.

Prove your love
Go above and beyond
Make me feel like I used to
Way before you were gone

Give me the fight
The effort, the desire
Don’t leave me out in the cold
Bring back the fire.

Ignite what it used to be
Save it for just you and me
After all we’ve been through
I know all I need is you

by Matthew Henrickson

I always think the Disney movie songs they sing are a bit cheezy. But if you look past that into the lyrics some of them are pretty nice. Recently I saw Tangled and this song (besides the singing) was nice.

I See the Light Lyrics
From Tangled (Mandy Moore and Zachary Levi)

All those days
Watching from the windows
All those years
Outside looking in
All that time
Never even knowing
Just how blind I’ve been

Now I’m here
Blinking in the starlight
Now I’m here
Suddenly I see
Standing here
It’s oh, so clear
I’m where I’m meant to be

And at last, I see the light
And it’s like the fog has lifted
And at last, I see the light
And it’s like the sky is new
And it’s warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once
Everything looks different
Now that I see you

All those days
Chasing down a daydream
All those years
Living in a blur
All that time
Never truly seeing
Things the way they were
Now she’s here
Shining in the starlight
Now she’s here
Suddenly I know
If she’s here
It’s crystal clear
I’m where I’m meant to go

And at last, I see the light
And it’s like the fog has lifted
And at last, I see the light
And it’s like the sky is new

And it’s warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once
Everything is different
Now that I see you
Now that I see you

Buy the Tangled Soundtrack
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Eminem came back with a great CD, Recovery, that I just started listening to. There are a few songs I like, but this one is stuck in my head

Talkin’ 2 Myself Lyrics

Ayo Before I start this song man
I just want to thank everybody for being so patient
And baring with me over these last couple of years
While I figure this shit out

Is anybody out there?
It feels like I’m talkin to myself
No one seems to know my struggle
And everything I come from
Can anybody hear me?
It guess I keep talkin to myself
It feels like I’m going insane
Am I the one who’s crazy?

So why in the world do I feel so alone
Nobody but me, I’m on my own
Is there anyone out there
who feels the way I feel
That there is then let me in and let me know I’m not the only one

I went away I guess to open up some lanes
But there was no one who even knew what I was going through growin’ pains
Hatred was flowing through my veins
On the verge of going insane
I almost made a song dissin Lil Wayne
It’s like I was jealous of him cause the attention he was gettin’
I felt horrible about myself
He was spittin’ and I wasn’t
Anyone who was buzzin back then coulda got it
Almost went at Kanye too
God it feels like I’m goin’ psychotic
Thank god that I didn’t do it
I would of had my ass handed to me
And I knew it but proof wasn’t here to see me through it
Im in the booth poppin another pill tryna talk myself into it
Are you stupid? You gon’ start dissin people for no reason?
Especially when you can’t even write a decent punchline even
You’re lying to yourself, you’re slowly dying, you’re denying
Your health is declining with your self esteem, you’re crying out for help

Marshall you’re no longer the man, thats a bitter pill to swallow
All I know is some wallowin, self-loathing and hollow
Bottoms up of pill bottle maybe i’ll hit my bottom tomorrow
My sorrow echos in the hall though
But I must be talkin to the wall though
I don’t see nobody else (I guess I keep talkin to myself)
But all these other rappers suck is all that I know
I’ve turned into a hater, I’ve put up a false bravado
But Marshall is not a egomaniac that’s not his motto
He’s not a desperado he’s desperate its startin to bottle inside em
One foot on the brake one on the throttle
Fallin asleep with writers block in the parking lot of mcdonalds
But instead of feeling sorry for yourself do something about it
Admit you got a problem you brain is clouded you pouted long enough
It isn’t them its you, you fuckin baby
Quit worrying about what they do and do fuckin shady
I’m fucking going crazy

So I pick up myself off the ground and fuckin swim before I drown
Hit my bottom so hard I bounce twice suffice this time around
It’s different them last two albums didn’t count
Encore I was on drugs, relapse I was flushing em out
I’ve come up to make it up to you no more fucking around
I’ve got something to prove to fans I feel like i let em down
So please accept my apology I finally feel like im back to normal
Let me formally reintroduce myself to you for those of you who don’t know
The new mes back to the old me and homie I don’t show no
Signs of slowin up, pullin up, blowin up, all over no mo
My life is no longer a movie but the shows aint over homos
I’m back with a vengeance homie weezy keep ya head up
TI keep ya head up, Kanye keep ya head up
Don’t let up, keep slayin em
Rest in Peace to DJ AM
Cause I know what its like
I struggle with this shit every single day

So there it is, damn, feels like i just woke up or something
Guess I just forgot who the fucvk I was man
Ayo, and to anybody I thought about going at, It was never nothing personal
Just some shit that I was going through
And to the rest of you, I’m back!

Yesterday after writing Pitch Black Night I looked for a few quotes as well as some of my old poetry. I found that I write about darkness a lot. I’ve gotten lost along the way and looking back I can’t imagine anything comparing to my feelings right now. Not of sadness or loss, but just being ‘lost’ and ‘dark’.

Being alone always represents darkness to me, especially being lost and alone. I picture myself at the bottom of some hole, or wandering around at night.

The sky went black,
My eyes went blind,
Darkness surrounded me,
When you left me behind

excerpt from Path of Darkness

I found that searching through several old poems and I thought it was pretty dead on about how I feel right now. However after hitting rock bottom, you can always go up from there.

If you can make it through the night, there’s a brighter day.”
— Tupac Shakur

Another good one is Tupac’s poem, The Tears in Cupid’s Eyes.

Pitch Black Night

I thought I was tested enough
To see if our love was real
I went to the deepest and darkest place
Waiting for you
To pull me back

In the light again with you
Completing my heart
Making my life whole
Without you something is missing
The world just isn’t right
Without you,
Everyday is like a Pitch Black Night

I accepted you as you are
Even if it wasn’t perfect
Forgiving you for leaving me that way
For breaking me in half
Now once you have finally made me whole again
You want to take it all away.

by Matthew Henrickson

When it comes to friendships, relationships, and just general things in life it’s tough to set a part what is true and real. Your heart and your love is so strong on so many levels, your eye can be blind to the truth. When it comes to certain things, I like to reflect on this quote:

“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”

by Albert Einstein

I finally was able to watch Eclipse from the Twilight Saga. In the opening with Bella, she recites a poem. Of course it got my attention. After looking it up I realized why, it’s by Robert Frost.

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great,
And would suffice.

by Robert Frost

I am surprised I never have read this poem before, it’s apparently one of his most famous poems. However, The Road Not Taken is obviously my favorite one. Because I took the road less traveled by.

Phantom Heart

I know I had the real thing once
It belonged to me
I did my best to protect it
Until it escaped me

I didn’t know I lost it right away
The appearance remained to stay
Your phantom heart was there
While your real one left one day

Your phantom heart still beats for me
Or the illusion continues to be
The one that is here right now
Is not real at all, even though it pretends to be

I love you more than love
But my love appears to be blind
If it’s not me you love
And I’m not the one on your mind

Then it’s time to end this race
Because in the game of love
There is no second place

by Matthew Henrickson